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New Year's Resolutions

Well, New Year's Eve is coming up so I have to compose my list of things that I want to do in 2005 (which hopefully I'll really do). This is about the only tradition I follow now because as far as jumping when the clock strikes twelve to make you grow taller... well, there's no hope for me anymore. So we'll stick to the resolutions list.

1. I will play the piano at least five times a week, and learn at least one new piece by heart every month. This January, my goal is to memorize Velocity of Love, which I had studied in part back in Manila but never really got around to finishing.

2. I will stop buying yarn until I've used up all the yarn I've bought.

3. I will go to the climbing gym more often.

4. I will try to listen more and talk less.

5. I will make more new friends than I did in 2004. I made only a few for the most part of the year, but I've made up for it this December, at church and at the climbing gym. :) I want more though.

6. No more stuttering and less "um"s! That usually means thinking thoroughly before opening my mouth.

7. No more hasty decisions, or taking action without thinking.

8. Enjoy my cousins more. I think I have been somewhat neglecting my cousins since we moved to Brentwood, but I would like to spend more time with them. It's a bummer they can't all go to Mammoth, save for David and Christine. My cousins always make me feel so comfortable and loved. Probably because I am only one of two girl cousins they have. April and I are spoiled!

9. Watch more classic movies. I watched Singin' In The Rain recently (and loved it, loved it!), and I realized that I've been missing out! I need to catch up on all these classic films.

10. Keep in touch with more people. Sometimes I tend to zone out friends when there's too much going on in my life. But I should really make sure to always reconnect with them regularly so that I don't go crazy. I think living here and not having that many friends in this area took its toll on me this year. But since I have new friends, I resolve to deepen these friendships, get to know these people more and keep them in my life. I've found at least six worth keeping. :)

11. No more spoiled-brat mentality. If I can't have it, I can't have it. If it's mine, it will come to me somehow!

12. Write more. The latter end of this year, because of all the events that happened, I was pushed into writing more than I ever have, and I realize how therapeutic it can be. Sometimes if I'm obsessing about something, writing eases the frustration and I feel at peace afterwards. It helps to put my thoughts on paper and create some kind of logic that will make me feel better. Or sometimes just seeing the words stare back up at me makes me accept whatever issue it is I am trying to overcome.

There's probably more to be added onto this list but I think this will do for now. No serious stuff, that goes in my bedside journal!

posted by Cathy at 4:46 PM