Random thoughts

Gloomy Day

It's nice and sunny out here in California, but I'm feeling a little gloomy today. There's not much I can write without dwelling on the details (which I don't want to do), but I suppose things just have a way of happening, especially when you've been living in denial and ignorance for so long. But at least the time has come and the inevitable is starting to happen. I can only hope that good will come out of this somehow, and only minimal pain will be felt.

This day just makes me want to sit at home and watch sad movies until I get so tired of crying. But this bitchy little side of me won't allow something pathetic like this to happen so instead I'm climbing my arms out tonight until I can't move, and I'm filling my evenings with activities so I won't have time to stop and dwell on things I feel I have no control over.

My "new" life starts Wednesday next week, but I still have no idea what that will entail. Wish me luck though!

posted by Cathy at 11:54 AM