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I see that I'm using this service in an unconventional way, because I'm not uploading any pictures at all. I don't know. I'm still hoping that that little note that I see on this page as I'm typing this ("Picture upload coming soon") is actually true. Total laziness, pigheadedness, whatever.... I'm a Luddite. Besides, I'd rather write a thousand words than show a picture. :)

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Okay, maybe I should have started this phlog with this (and I apologize for not doing so): My name is Cathy, and I'm a Filipino. I grew up in Manila, lived there for 25 years, then decided to try my luck here in the US. I've been here over two years now, and I'm loving it, although I've had to struggle a little bit to get by, and I'm still struggling. But I love being more independent, more free to do the things I want to do. I love that when I wake up in the morning, I can map out my day with such a wide variety of activities.

I love to read, write, listen to music, go running, go rock or wall climbing. I love the beach and don't care that at the end of summer I always look like a burnt potato. I love getting in the water with my bodyboard (even though I'm far from being an expert) and just spending the whole afternoon catching waves. At the same time, I'm starting to get into snowboarding as well. I love hearing the crunch of fresh snow when I ride my board down the mountain.

Do I miss home? Yes. But at this point in my life, I wouldn't trade where I am for anything.

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Anyway, I'm still debating what to do with my life. I went to an MBA information session the other day and came out of it feeling like it would do me good to go back to school and get an advanced degree. The problem is, it's a little bit out of my financial range right now. But I could do student loans, and that wouldn't be so bad. The problem is paying it off afterwards. But this would mean staying in the field of work I'm in right now.

At the same time, there's nothing in the world that soothes me more and makes me happier than writing. I write. Even when I'm working, I have all sorts of Word documents open, with random things on them, thoughts that I suddenly have as my day plods along. Of course it doesn't mean that I can make a career out of those tidbits, and therein lies the dilemma. I can only write well about truth, about my experiences, feelings and thoughts.... never have I been good at making things up, creating a story line and exploding it into a sensational novel. So that's that.

I'm going with Option 3: Wait. Wait and see. Well I'm waiting, and hopefully soon, I'll be seeing something good come out of it as well.

posted by Cathy at 3:16 PM