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Saturday, May 14, 2005

100%

It's that inevitable time again when I find myself reflecting on life in general, and the things that I've done so far, decisions I've made. I think being without guidance has taken its toll, although the guidance that used to be given to me was in my opinion a little less open-minded than I'd like.

Is there ever a time in your life when you're 100% sure of where you are and where you're headed? And how unsure do you have to be before it becomes a realization that you've done something wrong? Where is that fine line?

Career-wise though, I know wherever that fine line is, I've already crossed it. I'm getting immersed in something that I don't even want to do, something that hurts not only the career path that I want to be on, but my pride as well. And the bad thing is that it's getting blatantly obvious in how I do my work. This is not for me, and I can't seem to figure out how exactly to get out of it and jump into something else right away. I don't feel comfortable letting something go until I've already found something to replace it with, because I know it's just bad for me to have so much idle time.

So many other things though, and I'm confused. There's so much to be sorted out, so many things to mulled over and talked about, and I know I won't shake this restlessness until I've come to understand what exactly is going on.

Pretty heavy stuff, huh?

Okay, to make light of this situation, I found this amusing website about women who called off their wedding for some reason or other. I hope this isn's something I'll end up doing, and I hope it's never done to me! The pain and the humiliation!

2 comment(s):

It will be funny, as life goes on and you will see that your opnions in the future will be the same as the ones given to you today. :)

By Blogger Direk, at May 17, 2005 11:26 PM  

You do need a spiritual director! They'll help you to "let go and let God"

Peace and blessings,

A. Nonymous

By Anonymous Anonymous, at May 20, 2005 4:14 PM  

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