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Monday, August 14, 2006

Drama Weekend

I can't get into too much detail here, but I'm too overwhelmed not to write about it at all. My space has been invaded, and because of it, things have happened and I'm now feeling unanchored and lost, still trying to figure out the next move, still trying to make sense of things. Maybe I'm being punished for things I've done in the past, and that's fine. Maybe I'm being punished for sheer stupidity and carelessness as well, and that's fine. But I feel like I've been pushed down to the lowest level, as if the thought of my recent actions should disgust me, that right now I am the lowest version of myself, and I have to bow into submission, accept my fate, in order to "rehabilitate" myself. I'm the six-year-old kid again. And I feel like I'm never going to get past that.

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